31st Dec. ‘12

I hate when you wont reply. Makes me feel so retched and pushy. I am honestly contemplating deleting you off everything but I dont think I will be able to do do that. Like always, I am WAY too much invested into you both emotionally and mentally. This is no way to start a new year. 

Positive outlook. Positive outlook. POSITIVE OUTLOOK. 

this is not going to work.

31st Dec. ‘12

OH MY FUCKING GOD THIS IS THE LAST DAY OF THE YEAR AND MY BIRTHDAY IS 28 DAYS AWAY. THIS IS GOOD. THIS IS GOOD. THIS IS SO G.O.O.D.

and on the other hand, i got the whole story sorted out in my head. 

and trust me when i say this, i made myself cry even thinking about it. writing this down will break my heart.

AND I AM GOING TO START IT.

28th Dec. ‘12

Okay, things i need money for immediately:

1. Industrial piercing
2. That hobbit tee 
3. New hair dye
4. Gaming pc
5. Macbook pro
6. More comic books
7. Rammstein merch
8. Supernatural merch
9. Tickets to go to Bangladesh
10. Torcon

And guess what? I don’t have a job. Prostitution seems to be the only answer to this. 

28th Dec. ‘12

I was going through this blog and she is an extreme conservative and her  blog was nothing but this:

1. how she will never date a guy who refuses to carry any arms
2. she will never date a vegan
3. she couldn’t care less about animal cruelty
4. she HATES muslims with a passion

and some other crap I couldn’t care less about

but the thing that got me the most was her intensity of her hatred towards muslims. I am not religious at all and consider myself as an atheist but to know that there are people who are willing to volunteer to hurt people i know is just scary. i would gladly pour bleach on her brains 

25th December ‘12

aaaaaahhh I am going to watch The Hobbit at 7:30

fina-fucking-lly. I have waited long enough for this. 

And on the other hand, I do NOT feel like doing anything whatsoever.

This story will have to be on hold for now I guess.