16th May ‘14

Wow I am feeling hella gay tonight…?????
Like I really need some gay action rn. Like pls can a cute girl just show up for me to cuddle and make out with?
The gay porn on redtube is fucking repetitive sighs

16th May ‘14

ISHA FUCKING LIED HE IS GAY IRL FUCK THIS SHIT I NEEDED SOME GAY ACTION
ISHA YOU FUCKING LIAR
COULD HAVE STARTED QUEER AS FOLK BUT I STARTED PRISON BREAK AND NOW I CANT STOP BECAUSE I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS

16th May ‘14

I think my depression is coming back. I just feel so fucking lonely all the time and I just hate how I am so fucking dependent on people.
Just fucking come and hold me.

16th May ‘14

Speaking of all those people who i have stopped talking to, this chick I used to hang out with back in KSA just got engaged and I am like WHAAAAATTT??????????????
Not that I am not happy or whatever I am supposed to be, but wow you are only 18???? This is such a big decision too. And her parents liked the guy for her.
Reason #135 of why I can never have a brown and/or cultural wedding sighs

16th May ‘14

Yo I better get to start watching Prison Break today. This is only why I agreed to have a sleepover. Mark (wow I still remember him..??) loved it a lot and apparently he loved it more than Supernatural.
Lets hope he never finds out about this post but I actually miss talking to him
A LOT.
but ofc I was so fucking annoying and such a kid back then sighs

16th May ‘14

Every time I have a sleep over at Isha’s, all I wanna do is go back to my home because no matter how many times I stay at her house, it never feels like HOME.
She wanted me to come over so I did but now I wanna go home and its too late and I have to spend the night here.
This just goes on to show how fucking important my family is to me tho like I know he have differences but it never feels like home if they arent here.
How the fuck am I going to move out????

16th May ‘14

I need feminism because I am standing in a bus stop and I am terrified that the other guy will try touching me and the street looks pretty deserted to me sighs
Isha’s dad was supposed to pick me up but he isnt here yet and I am scared.

16th May ‘14

So I had two lunches today thanks to my boss for those awesome packet biriyani; feeling so in touch with my inner hobbit atm. We had a kick ass guest in too for a workshop about South Asian feminism and it rocked. The only bad thing was we had to report our last event and even the dumbest ones in the crew knew how much we sucked as a group but did stellar individually. So yeah. Wish work was like this all the time man. So much better this way.

16th May ‘14

Lunch was terrible oh man too much oily food though I loved the fish curry.
I barely had any veggies in today’s or yesterday’s meal oops this is bad news sighs

16th May ‘14

I was just thinking and I realized that I kinda have a split personality..??? Kinda like I am super nice to people I dont know (unless you are trying to hit on me) and the more I know you the more sarcastic (and ok I admit some comments could be perceived as rude???) I become and people think I change too fast.
No I didn’t change….????
I have been always like that…???
Am I doing something wrong?